How Are You Self?
Today’s article is a personal note by me, to me and for me but I decided to share because why not?
Have you ever taken some time to reflect, and ask yourself, “How have you been?” I urge you to do so, too.
With all the chaos and troubles in the outside world, it is very important to not only care for our loved ones but let us also take time to look after ourselves. Self-love is also a kind of love. Choose to be kind to yourself. Then and only then that we can be kind to others.
Let me share to you a letter I wrote to myself while staying up past midnight. It is my deepest thoughts, as if my hands typed the words straight from the depths of my soul so perhaps, some parts may not make sense to you.
A little over a year ago, I was shattered by the sudden change in my family; my relationship for 10 years came to an abrupt end, blindsiding me and tearing me apart. I was terrified for me and my children. In this particular night, I suddenly came to go back to those trying times. I couldn’t help but reminisce the past and so there I was, talking to myself, asking how I have been.
I am sharing you this to show that although it may sound embarrassing at first, it is truly therapeutic. So please feel free to read.
Hey Annie, it’s been over a year, 15 months to be exact. How have you been? Have you been better?worse?or still the same? Have your wounds healed a little? I know it will take time for it to become a scar but for sure, it will truly heal. I know it has been hard and tumultuous, physically and emotionally. Kudos! You made it this far. See? Imagine how you were able to hold out until this time. Time flies as you know and it will only get worse before it gets better. You’ve been through the worse and all there left is to hold out a bit longer, for you and your kids. Don’t you think the circumstances are working in your favor? Looks like the whole world is conspiring so you can survive. Hold still and shake all the negativity off. You are hurting and it will hurt even more but you see, it only meant that you are alive and perfectly normal. You are subjected to different emotions. Sadness is a part of life. Sadness makes you cherish happiness even more. A year ago, you thought you died a little; you felt like it was the end of you and you would never smile again. But look at you; doing fine despite all the chaos. You are going to be even more fine just as everybody else after reaching rock bottom.There is no other way but up so cheer up! The amount of burden you carry reflects the strength He believe you have. You are much stronger than you think. The pain will keep coming back, and maybe some more, but it won’t last. Learn to let go and forgive the people who hurt you. You will be frustrated, angry, annoyed and so much more, but learn to look at the silver-linings. Those are natural part of life. Clear your heart; it is too small for just the mundane. If you fill your heart with anger, where will happiness go? Remember, you are what you deserve. Don’t settle for less. Don’t let the bad beat you. Be steadfast. In a year or so from now, who knows what might happen. What do you desire? What is really in your heart? What do you want to achieve? Where do you want to be? Motivate yourself and all shall be achieved by you. You are strong. But most of all, love yourself. It is the most important. If you love yourself, you shall find the right path. Believe that if you feel lost and you want to know where your happiness is, look to where your heart goes when it wanders.